But there are a bunch of dandelions outside, and I like seeing them. They always make me think of summer, but this year especially. I am overly stressed right now- everything makes me think of summer. I just want this school year to end.
But it's funny, how I see fluffy yellow flowers in the grass in April and I think of summer, and I think of crawling around the playground with my friends, making accessories out of nature. I think of driving to the supermarket and going completely bonkers when I saw a whole hill covered in dandelion yellow. I miss sitting in the grass for hours at a time, ripping dandelion stems apart, pulling them up to see the roots and because I thought I was 'helping' (sometimes, I believed my mother when she said they were weeds. I'm not sure. Wikipedia calls them 'flowering plants', but Google says they're weeds.) I really miss being little sometimes. I was so happy with myself when I was younger. I didn't have a plethora of friends, but I didn't worry about it. I could sit by myself, entertain myself for hours. I didn't worry about my weight. I had awful teeth when I was little, but that didn't concern me either. I didn't worry about what looked okay. I liked a lot of the things I like now, actually. Riding my bike, drawing, reading, Harry Potter, watching movies, being nice, making my friends happy, and British things. But everything seemed infinitely easier when I was seven. Maybe that's just in comparison to now, when I worry about everything, and the concerns I worry about are far more life-endangering than they were when I was seven.
Everything just got so so so complicated. I hate being older. But it's not like there's much I can do about it.
Quote for Sunday, April 24, 2011:
The mark of a successful man is one that has spent an entire day on the bank of a river without feeling guilty about it.
-Author Unknown
Muse for Today:
Today, I saw: Hayley G. Hoover's blog, from which I am stealing this 'Today I saw' idea. She did it for Blog Every Day August of 2010. Did I mention I aspire to one day actually become Hayley G. Hoover? Because I do.
Today, I tasted: Cookie Crisp. Out of the box. With my bare hands. Without milk.** Yeah, I'm daring, all right. That was wild. A crazy time, man. Crazy!
Today, I heard: my brother teaching my visiting-from-Brazil aunt how to play Mario Kart Wii. This basically means that K was talking loudly while playing Wii while my aunt talked to my mom.
Today, I smelled: freshly cut grass!
Today, I touched: a dandelion stem, as I ran outside to pluck it from the grass.
**Like an idiot who didn't want to get up and go get milk.
Dandelions remind ME of Peeta Mellark.
ReplyDeleteBy the way, there are several blogs about 'Today I Saw'.
Like this: http://jillstodayisaw.blogspot.com/, which I liked.