Showing posts with label Criticism. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Criticism. Show all posts

4 June 2011

Mixed Feelings

I have news to share with those of you who know that I hate my Spanish teacher.
That ought to be everybody, since I never shut my mouth (or my... keyboard?) about how much I hate my Spanish teacher (a lot).
WELL.
In Spanish class, there was a project, which is still ongoing, but part of it was due Wednesday. For part of the project, we separated into groups and these groups were our 'family' when we were moving to a Spanish-speaking country. We each had a part to play in the family. (I was the ten-year-old girl!) And we had to write a thirty-entry diary from the character while they adjusted to life in their Spanish-speaking country. (We lived in Chile.)
I hated this project, not just because it was assigned by my Spanish teacher, whom I hate, but because it was simply annoying and time-consuming, and I had other things I wanted to do but couldn't, because of this wacko Spanish project assigned by my wacko Spanish teacher.
Using my logic (a logic which I find no one else uses or should use) I didn't end up finishing the project until the night before it was due, even though my Spanish teacher had given us two months to do it.
She handed back the diaries on Friday, and mine had quite a few disheartening blue marks all over it (on every single sentence I wrote except for ONE), but so did everyone. But ugh, I'm not supposed to get as many mistakes as everyone! *flips hair*
Anyway. *arranges hair back into normalcy*
SHE told the entire Spanish class (both of them) that she thought my writing was good. That I had the funniest diary she's ever read as a teacher and that she hopes I like writing in English, because 'there is definitely a writer in there' and that if I pursue it, I could go far.
I simply don't know what to think. Do I:
take the compliment because she is has read more books in her life and likes my writing and thinks I could get somewhere with it? Also, because I like compliments?
or do I
denounce the compliment because I hate her and everything she does and feel like my writing must be awful if she likes it? And I feel like my writing is crap anyway? And because bitterness is my thing?

Quote for Saturday, June 4, 2011:
"I'd like to live as a poor man with lots of money."
-Pablo Picasso

Muse for Today:
Why do people use so much more than they need? What makes us feel like we can do that?

Days until finals start: 6, including today.

31 March 2011

Gone With the Wind

I wrote this and wanted to put it on here, but I seriously couldn't be bothered editing it to make coherent sense. It was written in a stream of consciousness, so some ideas may be more stupid than others.

Also, the formatting on this post is kind of wonky, but there's nothing I could do to fix that...

**Also, I seriously spoil Gone With the Wind for you, so read at will.**

I finished Gone with the Wind, the epically long novel by Margaret Mitchell.

I stormed around for about an hour because, Good Lord, that book is 1037 pages long, and that was it? That was the ending? I was whipped along on some challenging, somewhat romantic ride through the American South during the Civil War, was forced to endure the continuing oblivious nature of Scarlett O’Hara (or Hamilton or Kennedy or Butler, I don’t really know), the sweet stupidity of Melanie Wilkes, the doomed and senseless ‘love’ between Scarlett and Ashley Wilkes, and the odd, unfathomable charisma of Rhett Butler…and in the end, what does that writer do? Lovely Melanie dies, clueless, trusting and pure to the bitter end; Rhett disintegrates because he never got Scarlett and lost his daughter-version of Scarlett in Bonnie and ceases to be the selfish rascal that made me like him in the first place; and Scarlett realizes the truths that I have known the whole freaking time, and ultimately fails to get Rhett. She was so blind for so long that she lost him! In the name of God! What kind of a moron is she?

And it (meaning the fist-clenching idiocy of it all) doesn’t even end there! Scarlett stands in the dining room at the end of the book, alone, freshly rejected by Rhett and in pure realization that she never loved Ashley in the first place, and she says to herself that she’ll think about all the drama of the evening later, because she simply can’t bear to think of it all now.

What in the bloody name of pomegranates? Why do you think this bothers me so much? Because this is what she has been doing for more than one-thousand pages, and it’s sort of wearing at this point. For all that she hates Ashley’s tendency to live in dreams and not look at what was in front of him, Scarlett is amazingly good at this too. She always says that she’ll ‘think about it later’, and then she never does! The problem gets shoved to the back of everything and ultimately ends up corroding the framework of her life. Thinking about it later is why it was ultimately better that Rhett and Melanie had Ashley buy the mill from Scarlett. Johnnie Gallagher was mistreating the convicts so badly, and she just wanted to ‘think about it later.’ Well, she never did. And Ashley got the mill, and he was fully willing to hire freed slaves and pay their wages instead of the cheap convict labor Scarlett so loved.

So this darling little adage of hers really doesn’t seem to do much good, and yet that’s how the book ends. With her thinking about how to win Rhett back ‘another day.’

The way she goes, she might never do that.

But I railed and I complained, and then I started thinking.

Honestly—I hate this ending. This is the longest book I have ever read in my life, and that was one of the most disappointing endings ever written, I think. But it makes sense. I don’t have to like it, but it makes sense.

I was born and bred on Disney and fairytales, and that was my childhood, and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I like that I had a sheltered portion of my life where I thought that everything could be okay, that everybody got a happy ending. But I’ve grown up since then. I’m not foolish enough to say I’ve grown up completely, but yes, I’ve grown up. And maybe this was Margaret Mitchell’s way of telling girls like me that we don’t always get a happy ending. Scarlett was indeed the belle of the county, and she was charming and lovely and that’s what princesses are like. In a way, to so many characters, Scarlett was a princess. But she spent so much of her life pining after something she didn’t understand, something that wasn’t even real, that she failed to appreciate what she did have, which was the love of a guy like Rhett Butler. She was selfish and greedy and stupid and cunning and far too human to be a princess.

In a fairy tale, maybe there’d be some second chance. Maybe Rhett wouldn’t have exhausted all of his love for Scarlett and they could have lived happily ever after, the end. But life doesn’t always have second chances. Not every fool gets second chances if she’s exhausted every resource, every chance thrown her way. And that’s always been a faint truth lingering in the back of my head, but this ending—this horrible, awful, maddeningly unsatisfying ending—really drove the point home. Not everyone always wins. It’s a simple, difficult truth.

I can appreciate it, but I don’t have to like it. I can still like my fairytale endings, because they belong in fairytales. I just need to start growing up and differentiating what happens in real life and what rarely ever does.

But rarely—rarely does a naïve soul like Melanie love a brazen, hard person like Scarlett and not even realize that there is no love back. Rarely is a person so loved and ignorant of that love it as Scarlett was to Rhett Butler. Rarely have I loathed and failed to understand a person, even just a character, as I have loathed and failed to understand the selfish, scheming Scarlett. She was a moron. She trampled people to get her way, she alienated people, she taunted them, used them, clung to them when they were up and kicked them when they were down. She’s no princess, but I guess that might’ve been the point.

18 November 2010

Snob

My return to school this year has made me into... a snob. Or an anti-snob, which is in and of itself pretty snobby. There are too many snobs. Snob. Now it doesn't sound like a word. Snob snob snob.
It has sapped all of my time- well, not really. Combined with my general laziness and my slight lack of time, I have not blogged in some time. It took a bit of cajoling to win back my sponsor. They pay me tens of theoretical dollars. I can't forgo that money, my sirs and madams.
I am an anti-Abercrombie-&-Fitch snob, which means that if I ever stop wasting my time and start doing something worthwhile, they will NEVER sponsor me. I really hate the brand, even if it is begrudgingly well made, because it symbolizes everything I hate. Most of my childhood hatred can be summarized in Abercrombie & Fitch. It symbolizes vapidity to me, the idea of buying something just so you can have the tiny logo on your shirt pocket, bragging to everybody that you just paid $48 for a t-shirt that's so thin you'll pull holes in it by Week 5. Without the logo, the shirt would be costing a lot less. I hate it. I HATE IT.
I am, in general, a snob. But I am a Harry Potter snob almost more than anything.
I hate it when people only watch the movies and don't read the books (what's the point?), I hate it when people watch one movie and they declare themselves 'a fan' (the fact that you own five Hot Topic shirts with Rupert Grint's face on them is, while admirable, NOT directly related to you being a fan), and worst of all, I hate annoying Harry Potter fans who feel the need to rub their Harry Potter lovin' in everybody's faces. We get it, Irritating-Girl-in-My-Math-Class. You've read the books "forty-two times each! I SO wanna go!"
See if I care. Go on, ask me if I care.
NO.
But worst of all is:
"I can't wait to go! My friend got us tickets and everything! So which movie is it? Five?" (True story, by the way.)
AAARGH. Give ME the tickets!
I am also a clothes snob, but I am the worst kind of all- I am a hypocritical clothes snob. I care more about what other people wear than what I wear. Like K. (Remember K, my brother who I represent with a fake initial?) I care very much about what he wears, which makes him want to walk outside in a pair of shabby clown pants and only one suspender.
I wish I owned suspenders. But two, at least.
Quote for Thursday, November 18, 2010:
It is impossible, in our condition of Society, not to be sometimes a Snob.
-William Makepeace Thackeray

Muse for Today:
I am so tired that I cannot decide whether 'Thackeray' is an awful last name or a good one, and whether coupling it with 'Makepeace' makes it better or worse.

15 July 2010

Next Blog >>

I have often clicked the Next Blog >> button at the top of the page just to see what comes up. And I need one more post for my ninety-ninth one, so I have decided to write about this experience.
I am actually making a really big deal about this one-hundred posts thing. It's my blog's birthday and my one-hundredth post on July 18th, but so what? They're only numbers, right?
It's actually far too late to take this rational point of view, so! On to my project!
  1. http://freeflan.blogspot.com/ (fReE fLan: A Blog About Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Joe Jonas): I saw the heading at the top, and some of my brain cells died. Who, in their right, sane mind, wants to pursue Joe Jonas? Not me. But Taren apparently does. Don't get me wrong, she seems like a lovely person, I guess, but that is one major character flaw. And then I saw the video. My mind flopped and flipped from confusion. I went to the next page, and I really didn't like the blog. But don't take the personally, Taren, 190 other people sure like you. And after that I was done, so I hit Next Blog >>...
  2. ...and came to http://3giggles.blogspot.com/ (Always Dream in Vivid Color): A nice, sweetish sort of blog, where a mother takes pictures of her kids and posts them on the Internet. Nothing really remarkable, but it's a nice way to keep up with the family (if you know them personally). I'm sure her 23 followers like her pictures, because they're not bad. I saw the first page, figured that the other pages couldn't be much different, and clicked the next button...
  3. ...and showed up here, at this blog http://onelifeonelives.blogspot.com/ (One Life. One Lives... Death Arrives. One Dies) with the cheerful heading. I like the background (ha), and it seems to be an okay blog, although he is an infrequent blogger (but if you look at his blogs, he has thirty-six blogs, so I'm sure he updates at least one of them). Several of them seem to be about cricket, and most of them seem to be about sports. It's an odd blog that sounds something like me, only professional, more mature, and well-written. I'm done here, though it's the best I've seen so far.
  4. http://beccaboojones.blogspot.com/ (becca jones: The World Through My Eyes) was my next unwilling destination. Honestly, this blog seems like Taren's future. It's a really, really upbeat, chipper blog, so I kind of hate it, but she just got engaged, so congratulations, Becca Jones! It's one of those day-in-the-life blogs, and it wasn't bad, just EXTREMELY HAPPY, and therefore not my type.
  5. The last one, http://wwwpumpkinqueen.blogspot.com/ (The Pumpkin Queen's Halloween Haven!), was really pretty darn wired. This person longs and longs for Halloween, and she needs to lay off a bit. She keeps very close tabs on everything about the American holiday, which is deranged in an inspiring way. Kudos to you, O Pumpkin Queen. I can only imagine how crazy other people must find you.
That was Next Blog >>, a segment which will probably never show up on this blog ever again. Thanks, and good-bye!

Quote for Thursday, July 15, 2010:
YouTube is amazing. And really scary. Just a thought.
-Me